[Nope. How dare you use the L-word, Clarke? It's the final snapping point though and he suddenly inhales sharply.]

I messed up. [It would have been fine if Jason hadn't already talked to him. Maybe it would have been fine if that had happened but the rest of July hadn't been a mess. But it was, and it was his fault.] I really messed up and I'm trying to figure out how to fix it and I think I really hurt him this time and I shouldn't have gone but I needed to do this and...I'm sorry.