Believing in people gets people killed, Akira. That's why this game works so well. [It's a lot of bitterness coming out of a 14 year old boy but he's pretty firm about that.] I know most of the people here don't want to play this game and that people's hands are forced, but I don't want to keep trusting people and later find out they were also suspicious of me anyway or they were planning to use it against me. Trust is fine. False trust isn't.
...and that's the thing. I have never felt so stupid in my entire life. [It's also highly uncomfortable.] It's like I can't keep up sometimes and that's probably the worst part. How am I supposed to help when my brain isn't even working?
[Thank you for being melodramatic, Hiro. There's a pause though.] It's what I hate about trials. I need to prove I can fix this and figure things out. It's some of the only leverage I have left to stay alive and actually figure it out. So...if you're here because of what happened yesterday, I'm sorry. It wasn't fair to you and it's not happening again.
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...and that's the thing. I have never felt so stupid in my entire life. [It's also highly uncomfortable.] It's like I can't keep up sometimes and that's probably the worst part. How am I supposed to help when my brain isn't even working?
[Thank you for being melodramatic, Hiro. There's a pause though.] It's what I hate about trials. I need to prove I can fix this and figure things out. It's some of the only leverage I have left to stay alive and actually figure it out. So...if you're here because of what happened yesterday, I'm sorry. It wasn't fair to you and it's not happening again.