And you'll never know for sure while you continue to live in your world. I was lucky to find someone who could tell me what I was seeing, after all. Not to put too fine a point on it, but if that hadn't happened, I'm fairly certain my death would've happened far sooner than it did. And I wouldn't have chosen to play the Game.

[Why go back to a life where nothing would change?

Joshua raises his eyebrows, amused.]

Really? You mean, like how everyone does? Like how you've done yourself?