[...oh screw you, Joshua. That wasn't just a slap to the face, that was a complete backhanded smack.
Granted Joshua's entirely right but Hiro won't admit it. As far as Hiro's concerned, Joshua's just misinterpreting everything or he's just trying to get under his skin. He's fine. He doesn't need somebody analyzing him like this when he knows how things operate.
...of course, if he really thinks about it...there's no denying it. He doesn't like having to think about the fact that he's here and he's alone. He doesn't like that he can't fix problems. He doesn't like that he's stuck having to acknowledge these emotions when he's a lot better at grinding them up and walking away.
The risk of letting out the grief and anger is that who knows what he'll do this time. He nearly killed Callaghan last time he let his anger and grief get the best of him and only stopped because someone else stopped him. He's not sure who would stop him this time and frankly he doesn't want to know. He doesn't want to reach that point. It's much safer to keep all of this to himself even though he's aware some people don't believe he's as fine as he pretends to be.]
Oh yeah? [Oh no.] Well what about you? You spend all day watching all of the Players of this death game run around like pawns and avoid the fact that your whole existence is tied to being stuck in one singular place. You let people have their chance at outsmarting you but you don't let people nearly close enough to even stand a chance.
[It's a hefty assumption to make and he's fairly certain he's actually wrong, but he wants Joshua to just back off for a minute so he can get himself back under control. He's starting to develop a headache from crying and a hand comes up to swipe at his nose as he sniffs.]
You know what I think? [Oh. No.] I think you're the one scared of facing the true problems and instead you're going after me because it's easier to try and tell me I'm messed up instead of admitting you are, too.
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Granted Joshua's entirely right but Hiro won't admit it. As far as Hiro's concerned, Joshua's just misinterpreting everything or he's just trying to get under his skin. He's fine. He doesn't need somebody analyzing him like this when he knows how things operate.
...of course, if he really thinks about it...there's no denying it. He doesn't like having to think about the fact that he's here and he's alone. He doesn't like that he can't fix problems. He doesn't like that he's stuck having to acknowledge these emotions when he's a lot better at grinding them up and walking away.
The risk of letting out the grief and anger is that who knows what he'll do this time. He nearly killed Callaghan last time he let his anger and grief get the best of him and only stopped because someone else stopped him. He's not sure who would stop him this time and frankly he doesn't want to know. He doesn't want to reach that point. It's much safer to keep all of this to himself even though he's aware some people don't believe he's as fine as he pretends to be.]
Oh yeah? [Oh no.] Well what about you? You spend all day watching all of the Players of this death game run around like pawns and avoid the fact that your whole existence is tied to being stuck in one singular place. You let people have their chance at outsmarting you but you don't let people nearly close enough to even stand a chance.
[It's a hefty assumption to make and he's fairly certain he's actually wrong, but he wants Joshua to just back off for a minute so he can get himself back under control. He's starting to develop a headache from crying and a hand comes up to swipe at his nose as he sniffs.]
You know what I think? [Oh. No.] I think you're the one scared of facing the true problems and instead you're going after me because it's easier to try and tell me I'm messed up instead of admitting you are, too.