zerotohiro | I'll be the watcher of the eternal flame [Eachdraidh IC Contact]

I need you to get somewhere you can ward this conversation.

[There's a pause.]

I also want to know when I said you could leave Caer Scima, but I guess my word and thought doesn't hold a whole lot of weight anymore, huh?

[A month, Hiro. A month and he had to find out from Clarke, and he had to excuse himself to keep her from being he target of his anger.

A month, possibly the worst month of his life since he came to the Drabwurld.

Thanks a lot.]

I'm outside. I don't know how to ward anything outside. [But he's getting up and walking, looking for somewhere he can seal himself up. Jason's next statement though is what really drives the knife into his chest and he doesn't say anything for a moment.

He could argue. He could yell at Jason, justify his leaving, do everything in his power to try and convince the older man that this had nothing to do with disobeying him, but...it's true. Jason never said he could leave. And Jason...was unstable. He knew that. He's known for a while, and pulling the shit he did probably didn't help.

Plus of course there's the fact he's just too tired to fight him. Physically, emotionally, everything. July had been trying on his thoughts and emotions and at first he thought he was doing Jason a favor by keeping his distance. Then things happened and it just escalated and now here they are.]

When I get home, you can break my nose or whatever. I'm not going to go anywhere for a long time.

[Eventually he finds an abandoned little shack and he walks inside after checking it's empty. It occurs to him that he doesn't actually know how to ward the conversation and so...he haphazards a guess, cutting his finger, spreading blood on his lips and mumbling the spell he'd heard from Ariadne before spreading the blood on the doorframe as well. If that doesn't work...then whatever. He also makes quick work to draw the sealing rune on the door to ensure it won't open before the conversation's finished.]

What's wrong?

Edited 2015-08-03 03:14 (UTC)

[Jason waits to speak until it's clear that Hiro has at least attempted to find somewhere private to talk. He intended to fill him in on everything, but finding out that he had headed out without so much of a word to him had change Jason's priorities. If Hiro is going to give him limited information, then Jason is going to do the same in return.]

Do what you want. I'm not your keeper anymore. [As if he has been ever.

These words aren't meant to be used against Hiro. He can't do it anymore, not after the month he just had. Even if he's just weeks away from Clarke's attempt to help him, he can't add the strain of Hiro to the list of everything.

Maybe he is disappointed, after all.

Or maybe he's just not surprised.

As it is, he goes on:]

Clarke just had vision about a bunch of monstrous mechanical creatures with shard eyes deciding to destroy the fuck out of everything. [See, all business.] I'm sure you can put two and two and figure out where they came from. That's a clear hitch in our plans.

Touch base with Loki when you get back.

[It's not even hard to understand he's in the wrong here. It's not hard to realize that he completely screwed up by trying to keep everything from Jason until he could actually see him in person and keeping everything bad from him that's happened due to his own shortcomings. This was his own fault. Shuck's curse was his own fault. If he'd actually stayed still and listened none of this would be happening.

The news of the vision worries him, but he doesn't say so. He gets exactly what Jason's saying. He wants to speculate. He wants to theorize and question and tell Jason everything...but too little too late, isn't it?

So instead, he keeps quiet until he thinks Jason's finished.]

Okay. [That's it. No arguments, no egging him on...nothing.] I'll finish that as soon as possible.

[There's a pause...and he knows Jason's probably going to be pissed at him for asking, but.] Are you okay? [In general.]

No.

[He doesn't lie, because there's no point in lying. He literally ran away from an assignment from Morla because of his failure in Mair, because he had been unable to find a solution that would make all of their lives better. The Shuck wanted them dead. The Red Hand was a manipulative organization. The Cult was trying to kill Avatars for power so that they could devour it, for some reason. That part is still murky. And now the dwarves wanted to speed up Armageddon while holding on to information they needed.]

But Clarke's helping me out. [Both currently and in the future. He won't get better, but he can't just stop.]

You should probably get going. [This isn't blowing him off, not entirely. He just doesn't want to talk about it again, not to Clarke, not to Loki, not to anyone. Highlighting the odds stacked against them is one of his least favorite things.]

...oh. [It's hard to say if the "oh" is because of the easy dismissal or because of the fact that Clarke's helping him. On the one hand, he's grateful for that. On the other though...it doesn't help him feel any less terrible about avoiding him for a month.]

Okay. [It's awkward. He recognizes it's awkward and there are a lot of things he has to say, but he doesn't quite know how to say them.] I'll let you know when Loki and I get what we need.

Loki's in charge of that stuff, so you should be reporting to him, anyway.

[Also known as: another way to brush Hiro off.

Despite his desperate attempts at not hanging up on anyone after Ariadne chastised him, he does it this time.]

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